this few days i have been so worried ans stressed up for this project hinokio.. sigh it has been a hell of a week... from wed i was doing hinokio all the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is like 9am to 10pm from wed to like today... at last its done.. during this 3 days.. i was very tense.. and i was easily piss.. and qiu wen will always say ann nee y u so tense up EX? and i have been using alot of bad words.. its like this 3 days my friends has never failed to hear me say a bad word.. and now i feel like shit.. i must go for confession... its a sin lor! sigh.. ann nee stop saying those kind of words!!!!! but its like i cannot be really blamed.. cause i hear my friends say them.. so i tend to say it.. ok ok i noe i am wrong.. but ya as i was saying this 3 days has been hell.. i was so stress if i could meet the deadline.. and i think the two ppl who got it the most was Kiat Ser and Jian wei.. cause they were the one who helped me.. and i was the one always saying hey how how??!?! r we able to finish!? then they will always assure me saying come on ann nee.. we can do it.. we will help u until we finish it up.. and when i told them thank u for everything they told me no need to say thanks la! i was like they gave me their time, helped me out.. and its like when i say thanks they tell me aiya no need to say thanks la.. its like i am very touched lor... thank u kiat and jian.. i appreciate ur help for the past 3 days.. thank u for not leaving me to struggle by myself.. oh ya mr graham has been really nice.. after 6pm he is like a different man.. not the normal strict guy we see in class.. he is so different.. he actually jokes wit us!!!! found out he is one cool man! oh ya.. i didn't see grandma for like 1 week. so after sch today at 9pm i went to orchard to see grandma.. sigh she is blind.. her left eye has actually abandon her.. she has changed so much and she looks so different... i went there to tug her to bed and see her fall a slp... but aiya still dun remember me.. sigh.. u noe.. i never appreciate her when she was well and fine... but after wat happened to her suddenly makes me want to turn the time back so i can spend time wit her.. its painful see her like this.. am not close to her.. but after all she is a love one.. seeing a love one like this will of course hurt.. oh well things can juz change so sudden.. so everyone appreciate those around u.. friends, parents, brothers, sisters, grandparents and so on.. appreciate each and everyone of them.. =)

u noe.. i think i am kinda messed up.. my grandma is in hospital.. sigh.. its like she juz suddenly cannot remember anyone of us.. or is like she remembers but after a few secs she forgets..up to now its like i cannot accept that she has suddenly lost memory.. its so painful to see her like this.. she stares into space like she is seeing something.. and she starts scolding thin air... its like most of the time i go there i see her and i always want to cry.. i am like so disturbed.. i am like in a daze everyday.. i want to do some of my left over WSS work from miss veron but i can't seem to actually put myself to do it.. or is like i want to study but i can't seem to sit myself down to do it.. i feel damn lousy this whole week.. and i only went to sch on mon.. and kept skipping class to go hospital.. but aiya!!! debar list is out la.. so who cares haha.. but its like i have good friends who always ask me how am i doing and how is my grandma.. its like really sweet.. like some of my classmates who noe wat i am gg though.. like xiaowei, del,wen,jianwei,lifen and some others in class noe.. thank u guys.. i really appreciate the things u guys have done for me.. and the yc.. thank u.. =)