GUESS WAT! i am in colin and audra's hse.. (their hse are so nice!!) i had a sleepover party with crystal and the both of them.. its was good! i slept over since yesterday.. today they had their housewarming.. damn! it was warming alright! hahaha!!! i am feeling abit bit hungry.. but no i won't say i want food.. so the stomach can make noise but the owner must keep quiet! haha! well i am tired.. but dun feel like really slping.. i mean thats the meaning of a slp over! haha.. hmmm i have somethings in my mind.. and somehow i dunno my decision at all.. part of me noe is a yes and part of me is a no.. like wat man! sigh but i dun think i wanna think abt it la.. so ya.. i am stopping here.. gg out to the living room to join them.. =)

y are u guys complaining that i never update! haha! ok ok.. its been a long time since i updated my blog.. this past few mths. alot has happened to me.. my grandpa juz passed away last week.. and my grandma passed away last year november 2005.. i guess when my grandma passed away. my grandpa didn't have the will to live on anymore.. they have known each other for almost their whole life.. my grandma was 87 and my grandpa 97.. yes.. they are really old.. but its not very a nice thing at all.. in juz a span of 5months.. i lost my grandparents whom i have gotten to know for my whole 17 and 18 years of my life.. i am closer to my grandma than my grandpa.. but there is of course the feelings.. do u actually noe that saturday afternoons it was reserved for my grandparents? every sat i will go and see them.. and spend like some time wit them.. now that they are gone.. my sat afternoons seems empty.. only until at night then i will get my butt out of the hse by then i dun feel like gg out anymore! haha.. my sat afternoons now seems like a routine.. its either i take a nap, do my work or watch tv or go to cold storage.. u may ask wats so empty abt saturdays afternoon when u got so much things to do? its empty because they are gone.. at least when i go to my grandparents hse.. i get to hear my grandma nag.. sigh.. i really miss them la.. like i said i took whole of my 17 and 18 years of my life getting to noe them.. BUT! when they wanted to leave they juz left without a notice.. when my grandma passed away i wasn't at her death bed.. but i guess she wanted me to be at my granpa's death bed.. yes.. i saw him breathe his last breathe.. i was like in a drama series.. my uncles, aunties, cousins, brother, parents and me.. were all there.. we are a reallly BIG! family.. and i mean really big! we were all push into his room.. juz waiting for him to see him go.. because we all knew he was gg to leave us anytime soon.. and my uncle and auntie was crying.. and i was looking at his monitor.. see his heartbeat go off slowly, blood pressure was very very low.. 16 and 0.. and suddenly.. the heartbeat juz went dead.. then ti sound came out.. at that point of time i noe that he left us.. very drama rite and u think u will find it only on drama rite? but it wasn't a drama.. its real.. a real life story.. but i didn't cry.. NOW dun call me heartless.. i guess i juz dunno how to cry anymore.. i guess maybe my grandpa didn't want me to cry.. but i could feel my heart was empty.. i was asking god y take away ah da when i still can't get over ah nei.. ah da was wat i called grandpa and ah nei was grandma.. its was juz a span of 5 mths la.. i guess thats the 2 ppl in the chow family that kept the family gg.. i guess chinese new years will be different without them now.. but knowing that my ah da and ah nei are together now.. i am glad.. =)