Everyone knows i am a loud and noisy person. If i don't talk for like 5 minutes i will die. I have been reflecting and thinking. Especially this few days when i have to chase people for a answer and it always works when i chase people for things. But i suddenly thought of this, i sound like a loanshark like this! i mean i don't know i don't like it this way but i have to do it if not things will not be able to carry on. I have alot to change in life and i guess it goes for the same for everyone. It does get tiring for oneself when they are the one that keep doing the same things over and over again. I have a friend who told me ann nee actually i am tried already just glad somethings are going to be over. i mean i understand what she means. Because she is always also doing the same things over and over again. From the start to the ending. We understand how each other feels. But we will still carry on no matter what. My body has been really tired and no matter what i have to drag myself out of bed. i cannot just stop my world for one day of sleep. i have to find that motivation in me again. Food does not make me happy no more but desert does. =)

love,
me

This few days, i haven't been much of myself. I have this feeling of pain in my heart. The pain is too much to actually bear and the worse thing is. I have to find out things i don't want to know and i feel i should be kept in the dark forever. I feel something is very much missing in my life. But i will try to stand on my feet soon and smile.

love,
me

i went for a late walk and jog last night and i am aching like hell. Not a good idea at all. =)

love,
me

i went for driving today, i was not feeling well at all. i felt like vomiting the whole morning while waiting for driving to start. While sitting there, the centre's canteen was cooking lunch for the instructors after my lesson. I almost puke man! it was that bad! All the instructors finished their 8.30am lesson so they walked pass me for their smoking break. When i saw all of them i wanted to vomite on them! I was so unwell until one of my instructor walked pass and said hi to me, i could hardly answer at all. (do realise as i was typing the sentence i was smiling to myself.) If you guys are smart you would know why but if you guys don't know why. Don't bother to ask. =) Anyway it was time for my driving after having a awful time sitting there wanting to vomite and guy watching. i stood up and walked to the back to get to my car. I saw my other instructor and he couldn't remember me or so i thought he couldn't. He was just acting dao. All this young instructors odd to get slap. haha no just joking! =) Don't ask how i know he was acting dao. Yes i have been digressing too much. So i reached my car and i had this new and first malay instructor. He taught the very important things like how to make sure that i do the correct thing in front of the tester for my exam. I was like i didn't know all that! Lucky i had him to teach and refresh me. It was a good 1hr and 40 mins driving because it was just different. As usual i had my laughs in the car and i was very much able to drive well. Did i mention i almost bang into a lorry on tuesday? Not proud of it, i was really upset about it. So on the hold i had a pretty good day driving and if i pass i am going to miss my instructors. =)

love,
me

In memories like this, i think about them. Those were the days when i was a geek with out of position glasses and MUCH SHORTER hair. yes i do not wear glasses anymore i wear contacts and longer hair. Those were the days la. =) i can never describe how i miss my life in ITE and with my class PU0501A. But there is something all of us must know that we need to move on in life but will be friends for the rest of our lives. That is something all of us must make an effort. Speaking to the few of my close friends recently. I realised i am not the only one who is missing the life in ITE and everyone. I guess we must leave what is the past and move on.

love,
me

As this month draws a open, i suddenly feel a tension feeling up in me. There is so many things going to happen and happening this month. I am actually abit stress because i have my driving test coming up and school is going to start soon. I must pass my driving test the first time because its too expensive to do the 2nd time. School? new life renewed in a new school with new friends. oh gosh! the idea of it is not very good. i dun like that idea at all. no not at all. =( SO! i am actually trying to calm myself down especially for my upcoming driving test. i am trying to take all lessons seriously from now on and not just laughing and joking with my instructors in the car. For the past months i have gotten to know many instructors. Some strict, mostly Funny. Their looks? i will just keep them to myself and smile. =) while i was typing this, my brother and his girlfriend sabrina were disturbing me. They wanted me to type this. =) SO:


love
me.