Today i started school already, time passes really really fast and damn school starts. It was ok school was fine. I had chel with me today, we are in the same class! We were quite happy that we found out we were in the same class. But chel is down with flu today, chel rest well k?I was sitting down on my bed thinking about the few months that has past. I was thinking about how i failed my driving test and just kept smiling to myself on how funny it was. I was also thinking how funny i was to try to hide away from all my instructors when they look out of their cars to see if it was ME AGAIN! haha. Its so funny and in my mind i thought YES YES ITS ME STOP LOOKING! ya thats about my driving test. I will be sitting for another test soon but i will let you guys know only when i have passed. And i started to think about C, E, J, K and the list goes on! Especially C! lets not wonder what it is! so yes this month has been alot of thinking and letting goes and taking ups. i have been busy in church, handling camp stuff with geri, wingbacks with wingbacks and soon hopebuilders? am not sure about that yet. I am actually physically tired already. Haven't been sleeping much and my daily runs alone has been not fullfill for a week already. Sometimes i just want to stay right at this moment and let it stop. Especially moments that makes me smile and happy. But i cannot stop my time here at all, i got to stand up and let go of the things i want to hold on to but time and fate does not permit me to. So thats why somethings are just really meant to be just memories. I guess thats what keeps me going, without memories i might have been holding on to that very moment making it hard to let go. There are many people in life you meet, they become your friends, colleagues, school and classmates. There are also people you meet that leaves you very much a impression to hold on but sadly you only got that one or two time experiences with them. 3rd time somehow does not come along. The third time could have meant something. But yes time and fate keeps you away from it. Its ok let it be memories then =) i was awoken uo my nap just now. My mom was scolding judeboy because he dirtied the floor and he is getting really rebelious. I got angry and got out and scolded him because he was making my mom really angry. When i got back to my room i just sat there feeling very very guilty on what i did and said. But what can i do? i just hate it when people get very rude to my parents. i have told one and a million people off for being rude to my parents. But searching my ownself, i question myself and ask hey ann nee you can be very rude too! yes i got no right to tell people off at all. Not at all but i very much hope to have the patience. I am very much trying to walk towards patience. I just need time because i can only be answerble to myself and the one above.

love,
me